Everyone tells you when you first go to college that its really hard to be self-motivated and you never truly realize that till you start to attend. I've been going to college for almost 2 years now and yes, I have to say the hardest part of college is self-motivation. As I am sitting here writing my little rant about motivation I realized that its really hard to force yourself to attend these classes when your mind set is somewhere else. I think it would've been a better option for me to take a gap year and then attend but knowing my parents, they would absolutely lose their minds if I brought up that thought. So I sit here today not attending my classes and slowly failing, and knowing its hard to force yourself to do something that you're not passionate about. It's hard to want yourself to do better but when your mind is somewhere else you can become easily lost. I am completely lost right now.